heeeeyyyyyyy guuuuyyyyysssss !!  sorry havent been on in awhile ....schools been killllinnnggg meee !!
whats going on !?:)

hows everyone doing , havent been on here in awhile how are you?:)

its funny how life , could give you lemons so you can make lemonade , but then it takes them away before you could even get the jucier ....srry that was just a random thought ....
-  make love not war<3

hey guys , havent been on in awhile.....sorry , just been a lityle busy , but ill give u a short preview on whats been going on ... my family are alot happier with each other , my parents just got back from vacation, we stayed over my cousins house(we all needed a little break lol. ,im ive been taking my purity classes every  week, once a week...my asian(my crush) and iI had a reeaalllyy small convo. (nothing changed since the last time ) iI like him, idk if he likes me blahblahblah... yep. same old same old. im getting closer to god <3 ,schools becoming easier now since ive been doing tutoring :) lol but yep for now on il start blogging more !
-make love not war ! love u guys<3

well, didnt go to school today ...sick :-/ which means iI didnt get to see my asian today ....< yep the guy im crushing on is asian lol and a year older then me .... idc. still hot and iI kinda think he likes me too <3 my friend is gonna find out for me and let me know .... anyway hows everyone doing on this LOVELY night ..?(:

well , this whole not talking to anyone that much is actually working... didnt think iI could do it ...lol but all this quiteness helped me figure out why its so hard for me to love,trust,or even really like a boy to much ...iI believe its because iI need closer from my last bestfriend/boyfriend/person..., we was friends ever since iI moved in the house iI live in now (4years)
iI used to tell him everything ....and we used to talk for hours about absolutly nothing ! and we eventually fell for each other ...it was bound to happen even my parent knew it ..but yea so we fell for each other , we kept just being friends ....then eventually he would start to say iI love you at that time iI was only 13 & he was 14 , we really didnt know what love was ....iI still dont but anyway after he would say that iI wouldnt say anything back and eventually he just stopped talking to me....</3 its been almost a year since we even had a convo and all iI need right now is ......to talk to him and get closer.

okay,so got my progress report today......yep. iI thought it was good.....3 C's and the rest A's but the C's came from low test scores ...! still got in trouble a little bit...kinda ...iI hate trying just to make my parents happy , and to be successful and your parents dont realize how hard your actually trying to make them happy..... and be successful ,but iI wont stop trying to prove to them how bad iI want this and how bad iI need them to be proud of me ! ugh...anywho....how was everyones day !?:)

haveny blogged last weekend lots going on , im sick , parents been arguing , thinking about my future, chores,school, modeling/acting stuff going on ahhhh give me a break lol , the this weekend im gonna have to take photo's at my dads 33rd birthday party which im totally stoked for iI just ....idk need someone to talk to .... perferably someone who cares...<3

idk whats going on , the night was going so good , now everything thing is all jumbled up in my head , my heart feels like its in the bottomless pits of my stomach....could it be that im up at1:33a.m. , could it be that iI need water,  could it be that im thinkin to much about the future or could it be that the two people that iI love are going at it again , no. I know what it is its all of that and some, going through my mind at once I seriously feel that iI hva, too much stress on me as a teen and that iI need someone to talk to about it ....but who ,my "friends" listen for like the first 10sec and just be like "aw... omg iI have to tell you something about this guy " ...& iI could go to my parents but well, iI dont want to stress them out and make them think im one of those seriously depressed kids............wait am I ?! have iI become just that !? idk this is what staying up does for me ...gets my mind going...sorry for all the typo's ....
-make love not war night <3

why do we love if all it is , is a battlefeild. 

and why cant there just be peace  or would there be a "peace" with out war..? 

it feels way better when a gay guy calls you beautiful , then when a straight guy calls you beautifull <3

well , the banquett wasnt that bad ,boring but not that bad....turns out everyone was nice to me  and found out that im  gonna wait till im  married to have .... ya know SEX , its going  to be tough but  waiting seems like the best option right now ...all these teens getting prego ! and all these STD's and junk....anyhow ,  iI can not wait till tuesday so iI can see sareth, the guy iI have the biggest crush on ...he's asian (; yes , asian!  idk if he like's me .. but iI think he does  because on the first day of school , we both walked together to find our p.e. class ...yep yep he's in my  gym class of all classes ..he  gets to see me get all sweaty and stinky ...unfortunatly ....but yeah so we were walking together and he was soo nice and stuff ! then like two weeks ago we were all playing vollyball , and no one would let me surve the ball , so then he cought the ball and came up to me and was like "do you want the ball " in my head iI was like screaming !! and soo excited ! but on the outside iI was smiling and was like "sure" (: all calm and collected, ugh iI just wanna tell him how iI feel ...lol im wayyy to shy to even say hi to him ..any advice ??:)

so instead of going to the flee market with the rest of my family and getting my hair done , iI have to go to this banquett  thingy wiyj my aunt peggy,...well she's more like a grandma ,  but iI wont get in to that ,my point is I dont want to go spend time with a bunch of church teens iI dont know that much and probably dont like me because of how iI talk , look, act, walk ....iI just want to spend time with my family ...wish me luck.
-make love not war. <3

okay so iI was thinking iI might make this blog into where iI could express my feelings and if anyone has a problem or needs advice or want to give advice they could just comment on the post ya know how jenna halmiton from awkward does hers ....? well yeah like her ... so im starting this tomorrow
k bye (: -make love not war <3

that moment you see your crush talking to a girl/guy thats not you... like no. back off.

hmm , iI never thought of this way....maybe you really want to talk to me also ,and you just dont know how or myabe YOUR scared of what iI might say....like me. ....gives me hope <3

ughh I hate the fact that iI cant go straight up to my crush and tell him exactly how iI feel or even just say hi ....I hate that iI let my nerves get the best of me ...!

i wish they could see how much this is affecting me , and how much it has affected me .... </3

Quote.of the day !! :

"dont let the past ruin your future"-?????

when there's two drunks outside your house arguing ....lol like no. go home !!!

omgsh ! I think iI just got my first photography gig !! .......at my dads birthday party ...?!  whateves. still sooo excited !

Song lyrics of the day

 "when the waves have covered the shore and theres no light to break up the dawen thats when I lookat you "- miley cyrus <3

Eeeepppsss!!

uh-oh iI think my crush knows iI like him..... O:

Whats on my mind ??? :

omgsh iI just realized that most of the people and "friends" iI have now I wont have in the future !!!(: << some people would think thats a sad or bad thing..... lol me on the other hand is sooooo happy , happy iI wont have to to be surounded w/ fake people, anymore and iI wont have to be judge by anyone to be completly honest  ..... I kind of want all the friends iI have now to just stop pretending to be there for me and just evaporate ..so iI can make new friends who actually care and who are in to the samethings as me and who will be there for me no matter what.  though friends come and go .....FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE <3

have you ever been so tierd you cant focus on anything...?  well yeah thats how I feel right now..... how was y'alls day ?:)

hey so um today was absolutly amazing ... except for the fact iI was late to school , anywhoo.... I have no homework , iI talked to my bestfriend/crush today , and iI realize that im a very independent person  who has friends just incase  iI cant be strong somedays ... live & love life to the fullest
*make love not war *

Helpful tip :

dont shun what you already have just cause you want more , be greatful for what you have and work for the rest <3

is  it bad that sometimes i rather be at home then at a friends house ......idk . either way I want to go home now !!

alright so im sittng on my bed eatting a cream pie while my moms listening to good o'l slow jams ,on a saterday afternoon .....idk if this is relaxing or callrd not having a life.....?
i need plans.

so highschool is awesome so far ! its very crowed tho... lol
how is everybody been ??:)

that moment  when your over someones house and your constipated....lololololwutC:

Be creative

how's everyone doing ?:)

sometimes you just gotta learn from you mistakes , because no matter how hard you try to make it go away its always gonna be there.

Joke of the day !:

iI wish my grass was emo so it'd cut its self !

omgsh, school is in like 5.days !!!! idk how iI feel about it yet .... idk if im happy or not about it lol  how yall feel about it ??:)

let go, and let god.

as a teen we all seriously have a lot of pressure on us ....and iI know no one wants to hear me complain, but this is my only way to express it ...how can peiple want soo much from you its seriously hard to make everyone happy , iI have to jugle school , chores and make sure im doing something like a sport or something ....iI mean dont get me wrong iI want to do a sport and something active but iI really  just cant make everyone happy iI thought iI was doing go at being consistant with stuff and being motivated but obviously not and daddy if you happen to read this thanl you so freakinguch for pushong is and motivating me. iI love you so muxh for that and iI know that your not always gonnna be there to give me those motivational speaches unfortunatly :(
but iI think that you and mommy has taught us good enough to make us get to where we need to be , and sadly but soon  destiny is going to step in and take us where we need to be. (:

poetry = <3

im such a  loser already , and school hasent  even started ! okay well there's this party going on this weekend .....but iI didnt get an invite ik iI shouldnt stress about that , but seriously iI thought iI was cool enough to go to a stinking party! guess not.

so am iI the only person who is absolutly in love with the movie Ted !?! :)

sooo, be a better bulldog is friday tomorrow ....yay. im sooo excited to see where some of  my most dullest days are gonna be spent...lol  but, no really iI am kind of  excited im going with one of my bestfriends!  and we can see where everything is and see.our lockers and all that good stuff .(:  i really cant wait to see all the new people ! iI mean im kind of scared that some people are gonna be total meanies !  but there's always a way to handle those type of people.....iI just havent figured it out yet ..:-/ so, wht are you guys most excited about school starting back ?(:

How's everyone doing ?!? :) haven't been on in awhile I've been injuring the last few weeks of summer it totally suck that summer is almost over ! I heard that soon the're gonna make school year round ... :( I really hope that isn't true that would be like being locked in a cave for a whole entire year ! Ugh... The only good thing about school starting back is the clothes shopping we get to do !(: Here's some good store's that you guys can go to : forever 21, urban outfitter's, delila's,rue 21,and try some thrift store's I know it sounds kinda gross wearing other people's stuff, but it's kinda cool you can get all kinds of old/vintage stuff that you can't get from a regular store... TRY IT !

 never let anyone take away , your way of expresion

that moment when you start falling for someone you dont even know....

check out these crazy nails !

How is everyone's Friday 13th , or am I the only one who does not believe in that ? I mean really ? They make a few movies called Friday 13th and everybody turns it in to a holiday ! Get real !soo Anyway has anyone been getting back on track with their sleep schedule for school ?(: yeaaaaa me neither ... The summer is like flying by !!It seems like it was just a two week break from school.:( But how have you guys summer been?:)

Why is this !?!?

uh-oh guys! its friday the 13!! watch out for any black cats !(-;

watching the person you love, love someone  else ....possibly the worst feeling EVER !

Quote of the day ! :

Dream as if you'll live forever. live as if you'll die today.

If you remember this your a 90's kid !

Quote of the day :

If you can dream it ,you can do it ! Follow your dreams !!

Hey guys camo's coming back!

hey guys havent been on in a while ..been kinda busy ....
iI have a question for you guys am  iI the only person that feels like life is flying by and your not in-joing it how you should be? its like everyone around you is having a great summer and your sitting around the house. iI think its time for me to get out and start living , start doing the things iI want , facing my fears!
besides, you only live once (; so live it right.!

F.Y.I :

even the prettiest people have insercurities ....

beauty tip of the day ! :

Beauty is not whats on the outside,but what's on the inside !

BESTFRIENDS !:

the one you can get mad at only for a short period because you have important stuff to tell them.

Quote of the day ! :

intelegents is a sign of beauty!!(;

Song of the day !! :

Just a tip :

 sometime you just have to count to ten,breath,and let the haters do what they do (;

The awkward moment:

when your telling a story and you realize nobodys listening so you slowly fade out and pretend you never said anything ...(:

10 funny things to while in a public restroom! :

1. Say, "Now how did that get there?" 2. Say, "Humus. Reminds me of humus." 3. Say, "Hmmm, I've never seen that color before." 4.Ask the person in the next stall if there's anything swimming in THEIR bowl..... 5.Scream " Oh my GOD! What the hell is THAT?" 6.Say "Oops.... missed" while syringing water out around the bowl and under the walls and door into other stalls. 7.Knock on the doors of occupied stalls and ask if there is anyone in there. If so, ask if they are busy.... 8.Pretend to fall in (with appropriate sound effects). 9.Put itching powder on the toilet seats 10.Make sounds as if your constipated.

Quote Of The day !! :

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart."  -Hellen Keller

Am I the only person who wonders this ??(:

if this kid don't have "swagg" i don't know who does !

im dying here !! stop polluting !

Laugh a little !!

Keep peace on earth <3

Look at this fun healthy snack !

hair tip of the day ! :

how do you like Selena gomez's colored streaks ? If you like it you can get the same exact kind from walmart for only $5!!! So go to the walmart near you and get Selena Gomez hair !(:

summer 2012

Summer is NOT about getting drunk or getting high, summer is all about having fun, swimming,staying up late,and meeting hot guys/girls ...so don't just sit around and let your summer fly by do something with it !! #YOLO !

Song of the day! :

where I wish I was ALL THE TIME !!!

everyone has those days when you just want to sit in your room by yourself and cry , but you have to find a way to get through it ,and smile :)

Tips to stay beautiful #2:

This summer Dont just lay around and eat everything in sight ,go out and get some exercise every once and awhile !!(:

you are freaking BEAUTIFUL and dont you ever let anyone tell you otherwise !!

Joke of the day:

why dont aliens eat clowns ?
because they taste FUNNY! :D

"I think happiness is what makes you pretty.period. happy people are beautiful they become like a mirror and reflects that happiness"

Take this really cool quiz !

http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyournamemeanquiz/

Tips to stay beautiful #1: smile it makes life easier !:D

How do you guys feel about Kim and kanye ?!(;

Random thought : people who bully Other people SUCK !!

Triple threat : bosh ,king James ,and wade !

Hey gamers,try this newest game from game stop!!