well , this whole not talking to anyone that much is actually working... didnt think iI could do it ...lol but all this quiteness helped me figure out why its so hard for me to love,trust,or even really like a boy to much ...iI believe its because iI need closer from my last bestfriend/boyfriend/person..., we was friends ever since iI moved in the house iI live in now (4years)
iI used to tell him everything ....and we used to talk for hours about absolutly nothing ! and we eventually fell for each other ...it was bound to happen even my parent knew it ..but yea so we fell for each other , we kept just being friends ....then eventually he would start to say iI love you at that time iI was only 13 & he was 14 , we really didnt know what love was ....iI still dont but anyway after he would say that iI wouldnt say anything back and eventually he just stopped talking to me....</3 its been almost a year since we even had a convo and all iI need right now is ......to talk to him and get closer.